This was my moment…
It was the middle of the night and the house was quiet. Everyone was fast asleep except me. The moon was bright and shined just enough to see in the dark. I climbed out of bed and tip-toed to the front door, scanning the room to make sure no one was around. I needed to get outside. My escape to freedom was a top-lock on the front door, but to my frustration I couldn’t reach it. My three-year-old self was too short. Like a burglar, I crept through the living room to the kitchen table, and grabbed a heavy wooden chair. The chair towered over my two-and-a-half foot self as I struggled to drag it to the front door. Nothing was going to stop me. I had a date with my light green Cabbage Patch Kids Hot Wheel. Finally reaching the door, I climbed up and unlocked it. The moon lit my path as I made my way around the house. Waiting behind the gate was my lonely Hot Wheel. I could tell it was happy to see me.
As quietly as I could, I rolled it to the end of our driveway and glanced around for any signs of life. My moment had finally come. It was time to conquer the ultimate hill that my Mom wouldn’t let me ride down during the day. This was the hill the big kids could ride and now it was my turn.
After pushing my Hot Wheel up the slope, I reached the top and I was ready. Taking a deep breath I pedaled hard and fast. Before I knew it, I was flying down the black asphalt with my long blond hair whipping around me. The pedals were spinning at lightning speed, so I took my feet off and held them out to the sides so they wouldn’t get ripped off! Eventually, I hit the dirt at the bottom of the road and came to a stop. I did it! The sense of satisfaction covered my face as I looked up the hill contemplating another run. Unfortunately, the hollow wheels of my Hot Wheel were extremely loud on the asphalt. Before I could go again, I saw my mom. As you can imagine, I was in big trouble. She couldn’t believe I would go through all that, at such a young age, but she knew I was a determined girl.
I think about this story and I wonder where some of my determination went. Sometimes it’s muddled by my double mindedness, my desire to make sure I’m doing everything right, or my fear of failure. Now that I’m older, I realize that sometimes in life when God gives us a task, He wants us to go at it with complete determination until it’s completed, or He moves us on. It can look as though we might be too zealous or too passionate, but is that really a problem? Whatever God calls us to do, we should be passionate, zealous, and determined to see it fulfilled. We let the unimportant concerns choke our courage. Passion should fill our heart for whatever is currently in front of us to do. With that said, there are seasons in our journey when we may not feel passionate, but there is always a glimmer of it deep down waiting to be drawn up to the surface.
Little did I know, that my midnight excursion on a Hot Wheel would be an important stepping stone to future adventures that would require just as much determination. Sometimes our call is obvious, and sometimes it takes time and experimenting to figure out. It can be one stepping-stone at a time. Your call doesn’t look like everyone else’s. It is personal and made specifically for you to accomplish. That is why it is so important not to judge other people’s passions or allow yourself to think that your call is somehow better or inferior to others. How devastating would it be if we all tried to fulfill the same call and compete with one another?
God has a big plan for all of us and we need to focus on our part. Honor, respect, and encourage others in their passion because no one’s part is better than the other. Comparison will only hinder you from fulfilling your call. Everyone’s individual call is a piece in God’s great plan. Be determined to accomplish each step that God gives you.
Lavender Morningsong (yes, that is her name) is a southern California native. She grew up in Leucadia, San Diego as a beach baby and lived on what she likes to call a mini farm. She lived a wild life until meeting the Lord when she was 19 years of age.
Lavender has been married to her best friend for 15 years and has three spunky children to keep her busy. She has done many things and held different occupations, but her one passion is the Lord. Through every season of life, her one desire is to grow closer to the Lord and be transformed into His image. Through her experiences and imperfections, she hopes to inspire others to not give up hope, to feel normal, to laugh, and continue to run this crazy, beautiful race we are running.
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