…Back to that hunk-of-a-man in shining armor who came, rescued her and swept her off her feet. (Read Part 1 of this story here). This was one of the best parts of the story that God had planned so long ago to bring wholeness to her life. It turned into a whirlwind of time that flew by and before she knew it, He tenderly asked to marry her on top of the Empire State Building in New York City! What an incredible story this was becoming!
Moving forward and away from the past, she tried to avoid the pain of a broken family. It would creep back in now and again, but for the most part, she could quiet the feelings of hurt. She busied her life with wedding plans and friends. Within one year, she was married to the man of her dreams. Miraculously, her whole family was there in love and support.
This was a fairy-tale ending…but really, it was only the beginning wasn’t it? We always end stories when the princess marries her prince and “lives happily ever after”. But her life was just beginning.
Her sweet husband worked his tail off while she taught cute little preschoolers, then later became a nanny for three precious families. In the midst of this busy time, there were some big trials that shook them to the core. One of which was trying to get pregnant for almost two years while hearing of all her friends who were having babies and carrying the silent heartache of loss deep inside. This was another one of those black blobs. There was quite a bit of pain not knowing if she would ever have children of her own. She longed and felt called to be a mother.
Finally after twenty months of failed pregnancy, she became nauseous with a precious life growing inside her. She found out that she would bring a sweet baby girl with brown curly hair into the world just like her mother had done before her. What joy and hope this brought! She desired to be the best mother she knew to be and love that tiny baby with all she had. It was more difficult than she anticipated but filled with laughter and goodness all the same.
This time brought some financial hardship which sent them to live with family. Another black blob on the painting was beginning to form. This is where things start to shift in her heart. She thought she was a pretty “good” person and didn’t struggle with much, but God had a beautiful, restorative plan for her heart and soul. She needed to see the ugly before she could see the good that He had for her. So the season of home-sharing started cutting away at her perfection and a broken, hurting and sinful person emerged. She was not pretty or perfect. She was incomplete and weak. She needed a Savior. She needed God Almighty to reboot her heart that He had created for His glory. She was swirling in this hidden rebellion for over two years.
The joy of another baby girl came, and shortly after, her eyes opened even more to her need for a heart-remodel. Two precious fiery girls can have that effect! Over the next couple of years she understood that she must choose life and joy, or keep walking in failure and destruction. Deep within, she knew which sounded better.
Her eyes were opened wide and she started to see that yes, she didn’t always do it right, but her Father God loved her repentance, praise and her heart to honor Him. She discovered that He covered her sin, doubt, fear, and ugliness with His blood. All God could see was His beautiful, glorious, perfect, holy Son when He looked at her. He loved her as much as He loved His Son. This changed everything.
And now, this woman was created in God’s image to do great things for His glory and has His power flowing through her. She has a destiny to bring hope to the nations.
This woman is me.
In His GREAT Love,
“But, when God our Savior revealed his kindness and love, he saved us, not because of the righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He washed away our sins, giving us a new birth and new life through the Holy Spirit. He generously poured out the Spirit upon us through Jesus Christ our Savior. Because of his grace he made us right in his sight and gave us confidence that we will inherit eternal life.”
Titus 3:4-7 (NLT)