I was laying in bed the other night, trying desperately to sleep, thinking and thinking. All of a sudden I was taken to a place I hate to go. I imagined what it would be like if I was gone and my husband and children were left without me. My mind went to the extreme like it often does. I thought, “No one can love my kids like I can. No one can adore and appreciate my husband like I can. No one.” I felt a little panicked. I tried to think of someone who could replace me but I just couldn’t. Do you know why? Because I am the one fit for the job. I am the one God placed in my precious family to honor them and show them who Jesus is. I am the one who birthed my two precious daughters. They were gifts to ME. And I am the one my amazing husband chose.
At that moment, God poured some truth into my weary-mommy heart. I am the only one that can love them the way they were made to be loved. I need to come out of my mundane weariness and choose fierce love. For me, this looks like scooping up my precious three-year-old and snuggling her close while explaining why it is not okay to whine and cry when you don’t get your way. The alternative would be putting her in time out in her room so I don’t have to listen to the whining…that is an okay option but it is not one that pursues deep love and honor and “training them in the way they should go.” I often choose the easy option but I am working towards the better way. They are mine and they are worth it.
I’m not really sure where this intense picture came from but I do know that God brought such good and beauty from it. I forget every. Single. Day. I forget the love and adoration I am called to have for my beautiful family. He has equipped me and will walk beside me as I strive to be the mom and wife that they deserve. I can tap into the Holy Spirit and grab hold of the fruit that He offers: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. I need those gifts every second! My family deserves my best, not just my leftovers. Jesus deserves my best. So, I am walking with Him and giving Him my best as I give my sweet family my whole heart.
Have you ever experienced a sort of “wake-up” call in your life? How did you react? Please feel free to share with us in the comments!
“Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds us all together in perfect harmony. And let the peace that comes from Christ rule in your hearts. For as members of one body you are called to live in peace. And always be thankful.” Colossians 3:14
“But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against these things!” Galatians 5:22-23
“Direct your children onto the right path, and when they are older, they will not leave it.” Proverbs 22:6