Have you ever felt like there was a part of your story that was so ugly God couldn’t use it? Better yet, have you ever looked at yourself completely aware of the things you have done and said, “There is no place for me in the Kingdom?” I have.
My story is one of rebellion, restoration and redemption. While many praise women like Esther, Mary and Ruth for their character and courage there is another woman in the Bible who caught my eye, Rahab. Today I would like to share with you a day from my soon to be released devotional, Whole.
“So Joshua spared Rahab the prostitute, with her father’s household and everything that she had; and she has lived among Israel to this day, because she hid the messengers (scouts) whom Joshua sent to spy out Jericho.”
Joshua 6:25 AMP
Sometimes as women we silently wrestle with HARD things. Issues like a damaged sense of self-worth, fatherlessness, pornography, masturbation, shame, fantasy, and dating men because you can’t stand to be alone, among other things. We often carry the guilt of our actions, and wonder if we would ever be whole, ever be loved, or ever know and feel true freedom. We’ve felt dirty and, often times, may not have really wanted to be seen by others. As a result, one of the last words we would ever use to describe ourselves is “hero”.
If Rahab were reading this, she too would be nodding her head in agreement: a woman accustomed to giving her body to men, there would have been many moments when she was alone that she felt all that is listed above. Nevertheless, she is not only a hero, she’s listed in the genealogy of Jesus. She caught wind of a God who could save her soul and while she may not have understood the magnitude of her faith, it started a course correction in her life that enabled her to seek freedom, granting her and her family life when they had been given a death sentence.
God’s plan included her as she was. Her cooperation ushered her into a new season. And now we read of her not as the prostitute that died in the fall of Jericho, but as the woman who had great faith, whose blood is mixed with the Savior of our souls.
Today I want you to look again at yourself and your story. Behold it with eyes of love, look for the beauty in it because the truth is your dirt qualifies you as an unlikely hero. Your cooperation solidifies the deal. Many may have counted you out but God knows the reach and impact of each heartbreak and failure. He’ll use it for His good if you let Him.