You know the prayer. You have heard it a million times, and probably pray it yourself just as much. The one that goes; “God, I pray if it is your will, that it be a smooth and seamless transition”. There is so much worth in that prayer. But, I have come to understand lately that God is in the hiccups. The moments where things do not go as planned. The times you are left wondering, now what am I going to do? Days when you think you don’t have the resources or ability to change course, or fix things on your own.
One of our daughters who is eleven going on sixteen, recently admitted to us that she has been struggling with severe depression . We noticed that she had started changing half way through her first year of Jr. High. The vicious world of peer pressure and destruction of self-esteem had become too much for our very free-spirited, artsy-fartsy, dramatic child. It was time for a major change and we crossed over to the world of homeschooling. I love having her at home and feel like we have reconnected as mother and daughter. Honestly, for a while, she felt very far away from me. We are still getting through a lot of her emotions, but I have faith!
After she fell asleep the other night, I wept as I prayed on the floor of her room. I cried, “Heal her heart, show her her true identity and worth God, I beg you!”
While our family walks through this very “un-seamless” transition into teenageville, we have faith that this will be used for His glory. God has wrapped my family in protection, comfort, hope, and love. I pray that at times like these we find the value of walking through hiccups with God.
What a story my daughter will have to tell someday, as she speaks about self-esteem, identity, and what God values in a woman. Her story will be unique and intricate, deep, and emotional. I can’t wait for the day when we realize we are out of the woods with her emotions. Until that time, we will find gold in the hiccups and hold onto God’s word…
“You are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light” (1 Peter 2:9)
Hayley Pena, 32, is not your everyday Cali beach girl. Although blonde, tan, and covered in sand, Hayley’s past goes much deeper than that.
When Hayley was twenty she found herself in drug rehab and pregnant. This is when she met Jesus. She began to learn who she was truly created to be.
Hayley’s twelve-year journey with God has been blessed. She married the man of her dreams and together they have four beautiful children. Her family which includes her very large extended family, is her biggest blessing.
Hayley, has followed in her biggest hero’s footsteps. She pursued a career in nursing just like her mom! She currently works in an intensive care unit and feels privileged to serve God at the bedside.
In between caring for her family and patients, Hayley serves in her home church in a ministry for mothers. Come and visit MomSpace Centerpoint Church Murrieta for more details and encouragement.
Hayley’s main goal in life is loving on, and encouraging other humans to have a closer relationship with their creator. She would be honored if you would follow her and her crazy family life on Instagram @hayleypena