As I sat in my 9th grade geography class I felt very uncomfortable, insecure and down right scared. Our teacher, an ex-military man in his 60’s with the voice of a drill sergeant, proceeded to give us the rules of his class room, that he fully intended to see carried out throughout the school year.
Rules consisted of: Never talking unless asked a question by him, always looking straight forward with feet flat on the floor and showing him ultimate respect at all times. I felt has though I had entered boot camp and I prayed for a passing grade.
Our first assignment was to draw a map of the world on a poster board! This assignment sparked excitement in me because I was a self proclaimed, aspiring artist. I worked so diligently on that map and I was convinced I would receive favor from my teacher.
When the day came to turn in our maps, we were instructed to line them up in the hallway just outside the classroom door. I proudly displayed my artistic talent and couldn’t wait for my teacher to validate and affirm what I’ve always believed, how gifted and creative I was.
He called us into the hallway one at a time and asked us to compare our work to everyone else’s. Being that I poured my heart and soul into this project, I believed it was one of the best, but he thought differently and began to tell me it was one of the worst and gave me a barely passing grade.
In that moment the belief that I was creative was taken from me. I believed a lie that I wasn’t “good enough!” I labeled myself as “not creative!” I carried this lie throughout my life, always longing to be creative, but believing I just didn’t possess the artistic gene! As a result, I’ve put myself down a million times when I was faced with a creative task.
Flash forward to 2016, while listening to a podcast by Brene’ Brown, (research professor at the University of Houston, author and public speaker) she said,
“Most people have a memory from childhood when someone robbed them of their creativity and convinced them they were not good enough!”
When I heard that, I immediately remembered this story from 9th grade geography class and I began to cry. I realized that was when I was robbed. The truth began to flood my heart and mind, that I am creative, after all, the creator of the universe lives in me! Then God began to reveal all the ways in which I am creative. I may have lost 32 years but God is restoring it tenfold.
I truly believe everyone is creative and the world needs our creativity! So I’ve decided to reclaim it. I do this by intentionally setting out to do creative things and the more childish the better: coloring, painting, playing on a play ground, dancing, singing, making a vision board, scrap booking etc.
It’s time to reclaim your creativity, I would encourage you to renounce the lie that robbed you and do something today that you’ve always desired to do, but you never thought you were good enough!
Daughter of the most High King,