At seventeen years old my first exposure to the Bible was after a bad acid trip where all I experienced was seeing evil spirits inside everyone. I told them to get away from me in the Name of God… and well… it worked! The next day I shared this experience with some other friends. They had a Bible and read it to me and it was the first time I thought God may just be real.
Fast forward to a year later…I was homeless, walking down the street with nowhere to go at 2:30am, feeling more hopeless than I had ever felt, and so alone. I was across the street from the very middle school I last attended and dropped out of at fourteen, (which was the last time I ever went to school). There stood a church. I was pretty desperate, I knelt down in front of that church and said this, “God if you are real, you have to save me… because I cannot live this way any longer!”
Two days later I was in jail! This is how He answered me!
Four different times in Psalm 107 it states this….
THEN THEY CRIED OUT TO THE LORD IN THEIR TROUBLE AND HE ANSWERED THEM AND DELIVERED THEM FROM THEIR DISTRESS. HE SENT OUT HIS WORD AND HEALED THEM AND DELIVERED THEM FROM THEIR DESTRUCTION.
Am I saying that the way God answered me was to put me in jail? YES, yes and YAAAS!!!! Sometimes the answer we get looks nothing like what we thought it would. Father knows best. Jail was the best thing that ever happened to me.
I have never used drugs again, or stolen anything! That date you ask? Well, it was September 17, 1988. I was rescued, I was delivered, I was heard by the God who made the heavens and earth, who told the ocean it could only come so far, who made me and has good plans for my life. All that comes from scripture..wink wink!
I have experienced this rescuing more than once! How can I deny God? How can I not give Him my full heart? Even after all this, I did not truly walk with Him or follow in all the ways I could have… but He never left me. He lives inside of me and never leaves. I can run and I can hide but this God of the Bible pursues me, because He wants to be my Father!
He is not a God merely of rules (man-made most of those), He is a God of LOVE. He has set the knowledge of himself as our Creator and Father inside each one of us. Then, oh then, He gives us freedom to choose, yes He lets us choose to believe in Him. If you look for Him you WILL find Him, If you call on His name He WILL answer you, He is faithful and He never changes.
So the 28 year anniversary of that night is coming up here in a few weeks…makes me so grateful! It has been a long road of restoration. I have failed many times. I still sin, but I live under the grace that God forgives me and wants to use me for His good. I AM NOTHING WITHOUT GOD.
Oh, and one more thing, notice that I did not say anything about going to heaven and being saved from hell? Why not? HE ALREADY SAVED ME FROM HELL! And… let me personally apologize to you, reader, if any Christian shamed or tried to guilt you into believing in God. I am truly sorry, please forgive them. For me, it’s about the peace and joy and freedom with the power to overcome my human nature NOW. I will make a difference here in this broken world we live in. AMEN? Ha, got you to say it 🙂
I do look forward to heaven though, very much! The bible says God will wipe away every tear and there will be no more sadness only joy in heaven (Rev 21:4)…so looking forward to that!
Give Him a try, He never disappoints! Tell me, what have you got to lose?
In so much LOVE.
Jennifer Trier is a fun loving, tenacious woman of God. Currently she is running the establishment of the MurrHOP Murrieta House of Prayer. Intercession for the body of Christ is her mandate. She is blessed to have a wonderful husband of 16 years and 3 children from high school to elementary.
Jennifer walks with wisdom, and loves to share with others what it takes to overcome the past and walk in freedom. Jennifer is not afraid to try new things, and is often led to take on tasks that are faith building. She has lived in Murrieta, CA for 12 years and loves the small town feel they have here.
Jennifer loves to ‘leave no stone unturned’, as she tries everything that seems interesting to her. Photography is one of her favorite past times and she has been published in The Sun Magazine. Jennifer is currently blessed to be a stay at home mom.