I am a worshipper! I long to dance freely, yell out, drop to my knees and cry my eyes out when I am worshipping. I do this often in the privacy of my own home (ask my kids and my husband).
There ARE times that I hold back or hesitate to express myself in church! That’s not my heart. I want to pour extravagant worship on my God. I hold back in those moments because I’m concerned that it would distract others. I’m afraid of being misunderstood.
Sometimes I don’t understand in church services why people seem so unresponsive to what we are actually singing and doing during times of worship. I just want to sing, I just want to shout! We scream for celebrities and yell for the touchdown while jumping up and down till our voices are hoarse! I ask, is our God any different?
Luke 7:36-50 says:
“A certain moneylender had two debtors. One owed five hundred dinari and the other fifty. When they could not pay. He cancelled the debt of both. Now which of them will love him more?”
I am paraphrasing now…
“Do you see this woman? She wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. She has not ceased to kiss my feet. She has anointed my feet with oil. Therefore, Her many sins are forgiven FOR SHE LOVED MUCH. He tells Her, your faith has saved you. Go in peace.”
That’s me! The more I understand who my Jesus is and the closer I get to Him, the more I realize, I have been forgiven much. I blow it EVERY day. The more I understand the grace that is new every morning, well that’s a reason to wash his feet with my tears, every morning. Seriously!!!
I pray my ZEAL never ever goes away! I want to keep in the front of my mind just how wonderful this forgivness thing is, REALLY!
So, for those of you who don’t understand why I am so over the top in my worship and zeal, here is your answer. I am the sinful woman forgiven!! I have been forgiven much and I will not stop ministering to my Lord. In fact, I will make it my life’s work.