It’s the beginning of a new and glorious year but, for me, I must admit, I have been in a huge emotional tug of war. It seems like all I can feel these days are the wisps of air on my face as people pass by me exploding with great endeavors that I assume are for the Lord. This is one of the most intentional seasons of my walk with God and while I know deep down that I should be brimming over with joy, excitement and anticipation, I have been battling fear, anxiety and insecurity almost daily. Last night I broke down and said to God,
“Look I’m fully aware of how I feel about my life right now but I haven’t stopped to ask you how you feel about it. What are you inviting me to?”
Oh, visit the Earth, ask her to join the dance. Deck her out in spring showers, fill the God-river with living water.
Psalm 65:9 MSG
It was as if God has been waiting a month for me to ask Him this question. His immediate and timely response filled me with hope and peace. God is inviting me to a dance. But not just any dance, a dance of creation, where He lifts my burdens and tends to the garden that is my life, cultivating it in a way that it will bloom in season. This is a dance where He leads and I get to delight in my Father’s presence and care of me.
I know I’m not the only one who’s struggling with experiencing a season of silence in their life right now. I’m not the only one who is wrestling with the desire to be busy for our King, but, He is asking for patience as He brings to perfection the works in us that will show off His glory. If you are like me, a Mary in a Martha generation, take comfort in the words of this Psalm and know that your life RIGHT NOW is a living prayer of praise that is pleasing to our God.
Silence is praise to you, Zion-dwelling God, and also obedience. You hear the prayer in it all.
Psalm 65: 1-2 MSG