As I typed in the web address, I took a deep breath and hit enter. eHarmony.com stared me in the face like a glaring reminder that I had no idea what I was doing. How did I finally make the decision to take this step and wander into online dating you ask? Well, about a dozen of my friends have been coaxing me to try it and then last week, my 16-year-old son looked at me and said, “Mom, you need to get a boyfriend, it’s been a loooong time. You deserve to have someone.” Yep, called out by my own flesh and blood. There was no fighting it now.
I spent the next several hours of my Saturday morning carefully choosing a profile picture, typing in what movies I like and answering 380 in-depth questions about all the things that make up Carly: my height preference, my political views, religious beliefs, music I like and what color socks I wear, to name a few. They don’t play around at eHarmony. They want to know everything and I mean EVERYTHING! The kids didn’t need to eat that day anyway, right?
But, as I carefully answered each question, it became more and more apparent that this was becoming a tool to learn more about myself as I tried to figure out what I wanted in someone else. It was a pretty introspective morning. So what did I learn you ask, well, a few things. I learned that I am pretty well-rounded. I have a diverse area of interest. I crack myself up (this isn’t news to those that know me). I love intellect and fun. I feel deeply and I am quite a catch. I don’t say that to be prideful, I say it in the confidence of the God who created me. He made me awesome. He made me full of love, compassion and sarcasm. He made a lover of coffee and closeness. He made me strong and able. Strong enough to withstand some crazy things. He has also made me to be a companion to someone else again. He has quietly nudged me through the people around me to dip my toe into the dating pool again. I keep hearing him say, “Don’t be afraid.” Don’t be afraid to be you, don’t be afraid to be picky and don’t be afraid to actually find someone. So, I begin this journey, as scary as it could be, here I go!
Dipping my toe,