Don’t click till you hear me out! I love sharing a deep relationship with Jesus just as I like sharing deep relationships with people. I go deep quick. You will never hear me chat about the weather or work. It’s not in me. I’m authentic; I love heart-to-heart talks and I want to know what makes people tick!
My prayer life reflects my relationship with Jesus. I’m not saying this is the ‘right’ way to connect with Him, but I am bringing you into my secret history with Him. I remember the first time I read Brother Lawrence’s Practice of the Presence of God, (highly recommended read by the way)! I marked up most sentences on the pages. He wrote at one time in his life that he would merely look at a twig and be brought into the Presence of Creator God. I thought to myself, “How many twigs have I stepped over without noticing, let alone allowing a twig to bring me into an encounter with God?” It was then that I questioned my salvation and decided to be safe and say the Sinner’s Prayer again.
However, as I’ve matured in my intimacy with Him the expression of our relationship has grown and changed. I no longer pray long lists of needs and requests. I don’t even sit down to pray unless I’m with people. Our relationship is built off constant, throughout-the-day dialog where I chat and He replies. Or He speaks and I respond. And that’s why I think prayer meetings are boring!
When the Lord speaks to me, often an action is required. As we connect I find myself moving my feet with eyes open and joy expressed through my body and voice. To sit in one place and travail through intercession is not my true north. I love and highly value those who are called to intense prayer. I am alive because of a mom who prayed on her knees for my protection and life. But when I pray, I see the world differently: I’m moved towards justice and change! I last in a prayer meeting all of ten minutes before it turns into a strategic meeting in my thoughts. I often hear a direction or get inspired to build and create! I start to see things from God’s perspective and I get filled with hope and joy right about the time others start seriously travailing and I feel like I gotta get out of the meeting.
My best friend is the founder of the House of Prayer in our Valley and we often joke that she smells like the fragrance of Heaven and I smell like the world. We love how God made us and the gifts He has given to us. Even though we are different we are great friends and we value who each other is in the Kingdom of God. I have found it is just as important for those who are called to intercession to stay in the inner courts and pray for those who go out into the market-place.
Am I the only one? Did the explanation of my heart and process help anyone else out there feel like their make-up or personal wiring is okay? Maybe in five years I will be in a new season with a new grace over my life… but for now… you won’t find me in a prayer meeting… but you will find me practicing His presence and stewarding His voice on the streets. Please, let me know in the comments where we might run into you!
Redefined By Grace,