Do you ever feel lost, not physically but emotionally? Do ask yourself, “Now what?” “What’s next?” Lately I have been feeling that way. Not because I am not happy or because of anything in particular. I am entering a different season in my life and everything around me seems to be changing.
We all struggle with change, especially when it affects us personally. Our bodies start to slow down and we realize that we can no longer do the things that came easy. Wrinkles and grays become noticeable and suddenly you realize that you are now the older mom. In the blink of an eye your kids are all grown and they don’t seem to need you like they did, which is the goal! However, it doesn’t make it easier. The relationship with them is changing. They don’t seem to enjoy being around you as much. They have discovering their independence!
I have been fortunate to work part-time and at home so I was always present when they were home. Some days I am happy and others I am sad and miss them running around the house. I had so many plans for when I had free time and now I find no spare time. I can’t seem to figure out a good routine. Maybe I am trying to do too much? During my quiet time with the Lord, I find myself asking him these questions, “Now what Lord? What do you have for me?” I know that He is challenging me and I am finding that there is so much that He has for me.
Matthew 11:29-30 says, “Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls.” As I read and study this verse, I realize that I don’t ever have to go through anything alone. If I choose to be yoked with him, he will always be with me, even when I don’t feel him. Being yoked with Jesus helps me to see things through his eyes. It means that I trust him enough to surrender my will to him when I don’t understand what the future holds. He becomes the guide for my thoughts and actions. Whenever I feel lost, He is my light and directs my every step. In every season of my life where I have chosen to put my trust in Jesus, he has given me the strength and courage to overcome any difficulty that came my way. He reminds me that there is nothing that is not under his sovereign control. Nothing happens by chance and everything works out for our good. If we choose his yoke, he will be gentle and kind and will not leave us as we navigate through difficult trials. I don’t ever want to forget any season of my life, especially when my kids were little, but I also want to enjoy the present and look forward to the future with anticipation.
My questions are now, “Where to Lord? What’s our new adventure?” This season has been a slow and difficult transition. Difficult because I didn’t have the anticipation like when I was looking forward to driving, turning 21, getting married, having my own home, or having kids. There is no anticipation to getting old! I’ve had to recognize that I was entering a new phase in my life and that change can be what I choose it to be. It can be good! Yes, I am getting older and I am learning to embrace this season and concentrate on all the beauty that surrounds me! I am looking forward to enjoying more free time with my husband and friends. I am slowly rediscovering myself and finding opportunities to grow. Growth comes only when we trust and step out of our comfort zone. How about you? What season are you in? Are you embracing it? Are you trusting and allowing Jesus to guide you? Let’s not miss the opportunities that come with every season!
With Jesus as my guide,