Do you ever wonder, “Why is this happening right now? Why is this happening to me?” I have many times! Last week, for instance, suddenly I started having this pain in my lower left abdominal area. Let me just tell you that four years ago I had this same pain. It got worse throughout the morning. I taught my spin class at 9 a.m. and by 2 p.m. I was in the emergency room; the pain escalated so fast, it was a 15 on a scale from 1-10! They did the scans and told me I had an ovary torsion.
“What the heck is that?” I asked. It’s when a cyst develops and strangles the ovary. They called in an obgyn to perform the surgery. It was a Friday night and the next day my son was in the playoff games. I was so upset and disappointed I couldn’t go. I felt ripped off and discouraged. Those unforeseen things that happen to us that we just don’t plan for can be heartbreaking.
Back to last week, I was having this same pain only it was more like an 8 on the 1-10 scale. By the third day it wasn’t getting any better so on Saturday I went to urgent care. The nurse practitioner said she thought it was diverticulitis or a hernia. There wasn’t anywhere to get a scan to find out for sure until Monday unless I went to ER. I went home thinking I’ll wait until Monday to find out, but after all her pushing and prodding on my painful abdomen, I was now in more pain. I tried to sleep that night but couldn’t because it hurt so bad. By 3 a.m. I woke my husband up and said I must go to the ER now. They ran tests and a scan, the doctor told me I had diverticulitis. What! Really! I thought that was for older people who eat unhealthy and don’t exercise. The doctor laughed at me and said no, anyone can get it. Here I am down again when I have many things to do.
When these unforeseen things just happen out of the blue don’t you just have to ask, “OK Lord, what do you want to show me in this?” Well he showed me I needed to slow down and rest. Just to be still. Spend time with Him.
I took off a couple of days from work to recover and rest. I realize how important this is for my health. As wives, moms, workers, caretakers etc. aren’t we always running here and there? Taking care of this and that? We rarely stop and take time for ourselves, right? Why? We feel it may be selfish? Would we feel guilty for doing something just for us? Yes, to all the above. But, we must first take care of ourselves to give our family our best. We can’t give our best if we are stressed out and exhausted. I’ve been told this over the years and I am trying to do it. I accepted this time to just rest with Jesus.
Today I took kids to school without being rushed. I stopped at the store to grab a few things. I let the older man go in front of me with his bottle, I thought to my myself he really needs some prayer. I prayed for him. When I came home I downloaded a meditation app like my doctor had suggested. It felt so good to just be still, focusing on breath and gratitude! I am going to do a couple of yoga classes a week for my body, continue to eat healthy and take time to rest. I am going to pour positive and kind thoughts into my mind. Listen to some soaking with Jesus on YouTube and journal.
How about you friend? How are you taking time to nurture your mind, body and spirit today? Please share in comments below.
Blessings and rest,